Heavy Steps 

(2019)

Heavy steps with sore heels 
A feeling of pacing on the same spot 
Still a home comes closer 
The melodramatic child inside surfaces  
We live alone, we die alone 
Sleep deprived again 
Madness and depression swill my mind 
Diluting rationality, no reasonable thought I can find 

I should not be walking down this dark path alone 
No light, no contact 
Turned away faces 
Me and the apathetic drizzle 
Human evils could find me here  
I quicken my pace 
Clothing soaks up water more and more 
Steps become heavier and harder on the concrete floor 

The doorway eventually approaches 
Despite fair warning the door hits me in the face  
No music to lift me through this black place 
Where is my mind Francis 
I crawl to a safe cold bed 
Drying off as a warmth seethes through me
And drunken sleep soothes me 
Luckily no dreams of a better world will delude me tonight